Everything happened as you walked away. I feel a hole in my chest, I'm lost. Let me tell you how it feels. It is like a nightmare comes out, but not in your sleep. You'll try to sleep, wake up, try to remember why you feel lost, and you'll end up crying. Again. But everything is under control now. I want to thank you for being so memorable each day. I love how jumpy you are or how you rained me with your jokes everyday. Sorry, if I complain too much or how easily I get mad for stupid reason, sorry for being not mature enough. I feel good, well, not as good as when you were around, but I still have reasons to smile and go crazy. My friends are awesome, and my host family? don't even ask, they are the best. I love how they make me laugh with those stupid jokes or silly random talk, they lift me up, even though in the end, I will fall down again.
Dear summer sunshine,
They said spring already went away and summer is around the corner. The fact is, it rains almost everyday here and as you know I always enjoy the rain, it reminds me of how I enjoyed my time with you, thank God those memories don't kill me. It also reminds me of our last meeting before I went away. I swear to God that day was really sweet. The rain, the lightning thunders, stories, taxi, my house, the night light, the street roads, photos, the late night call. I can recall that day perfectly in my head. Do you remember our list? too bad we can't fulfill any of it, or do you remember how you pushed yourself to stay awake just to talk to me? And our promises, when I get back home? You were so real, I couldn't help myself to make sure whether I was dreaming or not.
Dear summer sunshine,
I've become more introvert now. I enjoy myself when I am alone. It's a perfect time to let my own thoughts fly away. Guess what, I think almost about everything. I know flashback is such a painful thing to do, but I love recalling old memories. Yeah, most of them are ours. At least I know, I ever felt so alive once. I've known how it really feels to be so in love, head over heels.
Dear summer sunshine,
I've learnt a lot. I've never felt this brave to take another step, to accept things and still be thankful. I know that forgetting won't work at all, it's forgiving actually. Sometimes I think you went too early, I still have pages to be written and colored by you, I wish it is a comma not a fullstop, but I believe, there's still so much time and exciting things to do waiting for you and me somewhere we haven't know. I love you, just like you've always heard and you've never believed.
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